Hide N Seek

Hey boys
It's been a while, I know but give me a break. I'm a single mom with a full time job and three boys I love to hang out with. I haven't had a lot of time for this. I will try to make time though. (Plus Megan put the heat on me to write another entry.) Anyway, there's so much I want to tell you about but I'm going to try to stick with what's on my heart the most at this moment. This would be a little game of hide n seek. Abel, you haven't caught on to the fun of this game yet but I'm trying to be patient and wait for the day you want to play too. Kobe & Lincoln, we've shared tons and tons of hide n seek games, especially at the house on north bend. Do you remember how I would hide on the back stairs or in the coat closet or behind the basement door? You guys would be running around and I would jump out and scare the dickens out of you! Ha ha ha ha, I'm still laughing about scaring you guys. Even though there were a few times I hid and you guys couldn't find me, there was never a time I couldn't find you. Although your giggles would give me a hint as to your whereabouts I always knew where to look to find you. You guys always hid in the same places. Sometimes you would even run out to me before I could even pull you out and tickle you and chase you down. Today I am reminded that once again I have been playing the hide n seek with God. Playing hide n seek with God isn't as much fun though. I was getting really close to God but then there was the day, the super hard day, a month ago when I didn't want to go to God for my comfort. I wanted to get my answers from people around me, and not even people I should go to for answers. (You need to be very careful who you go to for advice - another blog for another day.) I wanted to actually hear with my human ears the words I wanted to be comforted with. Since that day I've been going on with my schedule but trying to hide from God. Today I have been reminded that just like you couldn't really hide from me, I can't really hide from God either. There is nothing that I think, feel, hear, see, taste, say, touch, nowhere I go that He doesn't know about. He even knew before that I was going to. When I am feeling close to Him then I am very comforted. But when I am not doing what I should be doing, this can bring fear and guilt. Do not be afraid of these moments. Do not cower and try to hide more. Come out and meet Him. Tell Him you are sorry for making yet another mistake. Talk to Him about the mistake you made and why you did it. He is our loving father who wants to talk to us about everything, good and bad. He is also a forgiving father who wants to pour out His grace and forgiveness over us. This is just what I've been reminded of today. I love you guys.